The stockbroker who hanged himself while under suspicion of killing his ex-girlfriend Stephanie Parze apparently called her a “piece of s–t” and told his parents that he “can’t do life in prison” in his suicide notes.
In a note scribbled on the back of a shopping list and addressed to “Mom, Dad, Sal, Sammy,” 29-year-old John Ozbilgen wrote that “most of the stuff you will hear is true.”
“Exept [sic] the child porn, I would never do that,” he continued, referring to the child pornography charges he was facing at the time of his Nov. 22 suicide.
“Sorry about all this crazyness [sic]. I’ve been miserable for so long now, I had enough,” Ozbilgen told his family.
“I dug myself in a deep hole, this is the only choice,” he continued, signing off with a smiley face.
Photos of young children being abused were allegedly found on Ozbilgen’s cellphone Nov. 9 by authorities serving a search warrant tied to Parze’s disappearance. They also discovered 10 furious texts Ozbilgen sent Parze the night before she vanished.
The 25-year-old nanny was last seen alive Oct. 30 leaving her parents’ house in Freehold. Her remains were found Jan. 26 in a wooded area along Route 9 in Old Bridge.
Parze had filed a domestic violence complaint against Ozbilgen a month before she disappeared. Authorities have said Ozbilgen was the killer, and said he confessed in the notes.
His second note, addressed to an unidentified ex-girlfriend, included an apology and what appeared to be insults against Parze.
“Look @ the mess I created, LoL. Don’t beleve [sic] everything in the news,” he wrote.
“The girl in the news with me was such a piece of s–t,” he continued in an apparent reference to Parze.
“She hurt me over and over, when I was already at my lowest, she was a horrible person.”
“I love you so much little lady,” Ozbligen wrote to the woman. “I don’t know what I was thinking when I (messed) our relationship up. … I recently tried to reach out to you, you got a restraining order? Why? At that moment I felt like my entire world ended.”
He ended the letter with: “Sorry for everything, I wish I could go back in time @ correct my mistakes, but I can’t,” and a frown.50